I went there today. To see her grave for the first time....the minute I stepped from the van I wanted to run...but my knee's were to weak...I kept saying she's not here.....then to see it written in stone......I had a hard time even looking at it...I just wanted to scream and pound at the stone....if it had not been for her mother holding me up I would still be out there...laying on the ground sobbing....even now hours later...sitting in the dark of what used to be her room..I am so overwhelmed with pain I can hardly breath and the tears won't stop....