Wednesday, April 23, 2008





Three years.....and I still wonder how I can make it through one day without her....Somtimes I think she was the only person who loved me and accepted me...for me....even with all my faults...she loved me. I am blessed to have had her in my life and I carry her with me always.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008




When Amy died almost 3 years ago..they had her cremated....and they spent a long time deciding what to do with her remains...they finially buried her on her Grandmothers grave ( I guess you can bury up to 6 people that way...never knew that..) they did that last year but I was unable to make it down...so this was the first time I saw the words there in stone....still when I think of standing there on that bright beautiful spring morning....all I want to do is scream...NO AMY.... YOU CAN'T BE HERE !! Please NOOOO.... I wanted to throw myself down and pound on that stone......I could barley get myself to look at it.....I did manage to make it back to her grave before I left...I went back to cut the grass away from the edges and cleaned it up a little..I did Grandma's as well...because I knew Amy would want me to...I miss her so much.....