I am amazed that even now....over a year later.....I keep thinking..."I need to call Amy" and then I catch myself.....I don't know how I can forget that she's gone...when there is this constant ache.......I think I must shut out the truth in order to get through the day....because all it takes is a thought of her and I can't breath...... I know that Amy would hate the fact that her memory brings me so much pain....and there are times when I remember something she did...or I can hear her say something.....and smile or laugh..but the crash after....when I realize that I'll never see her again...........well its still like getting run over by a train......