Thursday, November 23, 2006

Thanksgiving.....

I am thankful for the time I had with her.
I am thankful I could call her not only a friend, but family.
I am thankful I had a friend who could leave such a whole......(cuz some people don't)
Though I miss her every moment of every day...I am thankful ...and would not trade it for the world!




When I was little....every year till I was about 12 and we moved away.....I would eat at my house..then run over to Amy's Grandma's house and eat again !! It was always filled with family and food (of course) and lots of laughter! I never felt out of place....like a pig maybe...but never out of place!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Regrets.....


15 years ago today I eloped with my wonderful husband Jim.....and in doing so created one of my deepest regrets. We got engaged and married two weeks later....mainly because of Jims work situation -he was taking on a new position that wouldn't allow him time off for at least a year ! And we didn't want to wait that long...then there was family issues.....anyways alot of clutter and pressure got in the way so we decided "heck with it - lets just go do it!" So we did......and I couldn't get a hold of Amy, plus I could not afford to fly her up and she had just gotten married as well.....I can make all the excuses but it all comes down to Amy was not in my wedding.....and I have regretted it everyday since...... I know she forgave me...but I have yet to forgive myself....... I have a hard time even looking at my wedding pictures without wanting to cry ............