Dreams

In my dreams Amy is alive..... At least for the last few months...Before that I never slept deep enough to even have a dream..... now having her there makes me want to sleep alot.....Until last night. I had my first dream where in the dream she was dead......I awoke from a deep sleep sobbing...my pillow wet and snot...well you can imagine......Does this mean I am finally accepting her death?? I am afraid to go to sleep tonight.......it feels like I am losing the last place that I could go to be with her......